Two Directions – Thoughts on Sanguivore Personal Development

24 February, 201816 March, 2020 Alexia3 Comments

“When we go in two directions, when we don’t trust our own nature, we don’t go anywhere at all. If we can learn to trust our own nature, we will, I think, be profoundly surprised that things don’t go out of control at all; but on the contrary, suddenly come back into control.” – Alan W. Watts

I’ve seen many blood drinkers talk about the ‘two selves’. A common theme seems to be duality. It’s a prominent theme in my life, as well. In younger sanguivores, it can be especially difficult to come to terms with the more predatory aspects of one’s nature. This can lead to depression, anxiety, guilt. In worse cases, I’ve even known of some sanguivores to self-harm because of being so addled with guilt.

Sanguinarian Research – Vampirewebsite.net rebuttal of information

10 February, 201816 March, 2020 Alexia3 Comments

Special thanks to Sanguinarian Research for allowing the reposting of the article! The original article can be found here.

Rebuttal of information as presented on the vampirewebsite.net front page

Why:
I elected to take on this research as I find the propagation of false information spread under the guise of “scientific research” harmful to those who are actually trying to accomplish true scientific research. The information is presented on vampirewebsite.net as fact alone with minimal actual data and studies to support the information presented there-in. Because of this, I have taken on to examine the front page of “vampirewebsite.net” and point out the errors in the scientific thinking and add additional studies and data to support my assertions.

If we elect to start at the beginning, it should be a brief history of the website itself. Formed in 2008 by Steve Leighton, it originally espoused the V5 viral theory (K-17 also mentioned) but it was changed in 2009 to add the endogenous retrovirus hypotheses. However, those virii were found to be a product of fiction (Ultraviolet TV series for V5 and “Reign of Darkness” for K-17) and eventually reference was removed in 2010 when “vHERV” was substituted for “V5” without any other change to the text. I believe this led to further errors in the hypothesis put forth. These errors will be addressed later. In 2012, a page on superinfection was added with a link to a Harvard article describing the theory of superinfection. However, this article does not apply as presented and will be discussed later. The Harvard link was removed in 2015 and replaced with a Google link for searching “superinfection”.
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Sanguivore, Med Sang, Sanguinarian. What do they mean, anyway?

31 January, 201816 March, 2020 Alexia3 Comments

[This is strictly from my perspective. It does not intend to speak for all who may identify with any of these terms.]

Terminology is a necessary staple for me when describing one’s experiences, especially when they differ from a significant demographic. I’ve identified as many things over the years. First, of course, I identified as a vampire. I needed to drink blood. I mean, who wouldn’t? Over time, I learned of the word ‘sanguinarian’. At the time, it seemed to make the most sense in the absence of anything else. People who needed to drink blood. Yep. That was me.

Crimson Kiss: Sanguivores, Blood, and Sex

29 December, 201716 March, 2020 AlexiaLeave a comment

Catchy title, right? If you’re anything like me, you’ll have read the two words and perhaps winced a little. It sounds like a teenage vampire fan’s edgy lip gloss. Not that there’s anything wrong with loving the crap outta vampire fiction. I support everyone to be authentically themselves and follow their passions.

It isn’t just the words that many sanguivores inherently wince at. I’ve noticed over many years that if there’s a brief hint of sexuality involved in blood drinking, there is an immediate and fierce resistance in most cases.

Compassion fatigue, burnout, and self-care

29 December, 201716 March, 2020 AlexiaLeave a comment

When I decided to write again, I was at first going to write a long-winded post reflecting on the past year, but I’ve decided to jump right back into writing. I’ll likely be addressing several of those topics in future blog posts.

None of us have an infinite well from which to pour. In some communities, it’s well-known that people regularly experience ‘burnout’. In discussions, people often attribute that fact to several factors. Negativity, a hostile environment, etc.

Ex Meis Cineribus Renascor – Sanguivores, Med Sangs & Vampires

19 September, 201716 March, 2020 AlexiaLeave a comment

[Editor’s note – This was a piece I wrote several months back while trying to come to terms with many elements of my involvement with TRC, and anything related to sanguivory/vampirism as a whole. It has been published privately to admins and editors for that time, but the New Year seems like the apt time to release my thoughts publicly. Please note that this was not attempting to categorize sanguivores, but rather personal realization that I may have misrepresented myself.]

For some time, I have been in a period of quiet reflection and contemplation. Sometimes, it can take stepping back and pausing to be able to reflect on what has transpired prior, lest one get swept away in the tide.

I’ve been conducting a series of informal talks over the last several months (both online and offline), regarding The Red Cellar, what has come to be known as ‘med sangs’ and my past work. Additionally, as time goes on, the more we learn about ourselves. I believe it important to learn, and to grow.

Consider the Med Sang Point of View

4 March, 201616 March, 2020 Syrf5 Comments

Fake Dictionary, Dictionary definition of the word pragmatic.

I first came across the Online Vampire Community in 1999, while researching the Therian and Otherkin communities as a child. I was looking for explanations for the “trans-species” body dysmorphia that has been with me most of my life, and the two communities existed at the time and continue to exist in relative close proximity.